5, 4, 3, 2, 1

Your heart thumps. Thump. Thump. Thump. 

You don’t know whether you can do it. 

More thumping. 

You’re walking out. It’s safe. People have gone here before. People have done it. People will do it after you. 

Thump. Thump. Thump. 

Your hands cling the guardrails. 

How you feeling?

Excited. 

You remember someone told you feeling nervous comes from the same place as feeling excited. 

You feel both. But saying excited helps. Excited and nervous. 

Thump. 

The harness goes on. Left leg, then hop on the left foot to get the right foot in. 

How’s it feel? Not too tight? 

It’s perfect. 

Strapped in. 

Do you want to look over the ledge? 

No. 

You sure?

You look over the edge. 

I shouldn’t have done that. 

The guide speaks. 

I’m going to count down from 5 and then you’re good to go. 

5

Thump. Thump. 

4

The thumps get faster but you can’t feel them.

3

No thumps. No nothing. You and and the edge. This is it. 

2

You’re body is ready. It’s not ready. It’s ready. Not ready. Ready.

1

Left foot, right foot, left foot, right foot. You’re moving. Moving fast. There’s the edge. You look out. Keep moving. Left foot, right foot, push off. You’re in the air. Arms spread floating through. Time stands still. This moment is perfect. Everything stops. Everything is clear. Moving fast but clear.

Gravity kicks in.  

The floating is over. You’re falling. Thump. Thump. Thump. The ground is moving towards you. Moving fast. 400 metres, 300 metres, 200.  

Then the cord pulls tight. Tight enough to suck up all the gravity into its strands. The ground starts slowing down. The cord is getting tighter, tighter, tighter stop. It hits its limit. 

All the gravity is inside the cord. It has to go somewhere. Gravity cannot be contained. It ejects itself out. It can’t be contained. All the gravity gets shot out as the cord shrinks you feel it feel it all you’re going back up. Then back down. It repeats, ground tight gravity eject ground tight gravity eject.

Back on the platform the thumps come back. Thump. Thump. Thump.  You speak.

My hands are shaking. 

Everything is shaking. 

How was it brother? 

Unreal. You can’t describe it. 

You can’t. There’s no words for fear escaping the body in such a way. 

All it takes is 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. 

It might not be bungey jumping or anything requiring a harness. But when the fear arises, use the countdown to turn it into energy. Then direct the energy where it needs to go. Left foot, right foot, left foot, right foot.

Shout out to the team at Queenstown Ledge Bungey. Today was unreal. 

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