The New You Has To Let The Old You Die

‘We’re looking to sponsor 3-4 videos in your channel,’ she said.

I took a screenshot and sent it to my brothers and friend Dave.

A Senior Marketing Manager from Coursera reached out to me last Friday. She saw one of my videos of me doing a course on their platform.

Now we’re spinning ideas together to see what can come next.

It might work out, it might not.

Last year, I would’ve never received that email.

‘What are you doing here?’ she asked.



‘It pays for my studies.’

‘But you’re too hot to be an Uber driver.’

Her friends were encouraging her to get my phone number. She kissed me on the cheek when she got out.

Uber was fun. It gave me cash to pay for the courses I was doing online.

The best part was meeting new people every 10-minutes. Everyone has a story. I made it my mission to find it out.

Then I got a fine for driving in the wrong place one night. So I quit driving the next day.

I’ve been studying Machine Learning online for the past 18-months. I got a job as an Engineer two weeks after saying to myself ‘I’m not driving Uber anymore.’

Along the way, I turned into a human frozen yoghurt machine. But with content instead of yoghurt. Sometimes my output isn’t as sweet but at least it lasts forever.

Anyway, I make videos about what I get up to. And I’d been doing a course on Coursera so I made a video about it.

And then the email came. Even if it falls through, its changed my life forever.

So what’s the trick?

People will tell you there is no trick.

Or that the trick can’t be taught.

They’re right. And so are all the other platitudes. But their words aren’t useful.

The trick is to do more things that might not work.

I’ve been listening to a lot of rap lately. I love the punchiness behind the bars.

When a rapper makes it, all their songs talk about is how they struggled to make it.

All the times they were broke and eating nothing but driven by the vision. You know the songs.

There’s a lesson there. Your truth is best story you’ll ever tell.

Out of every 1 rapper who makes it, there’s probably 10,000 who don’t. But they all have one thing in common, doing something that might not work.

The old version of me was a fragile caterpillar.

  • Afraid to create things and share them with others

  • ‘I can learn that’ attitude

  • ‘Who can I blame for this?’ type operator

  • No specific vision because being specific meant a defined point of failure

  • Dishonest with myself

  • Not in love with myself

Now I’m a butterfly.

  • I let the ideas out of the jail of my mind

  • Everything is my fault, no blaming others

  • I can learn anything with enough time, dedication and purpose

  • Ambitious specific visions

  • Honest with myself

  • More in love with myself

  • And I flutter around

Why a butterfly?

Because most butterfly’s have a short lifespan. Two weeks or less.

You know the saying. Life is short.

But it’s also the longest thing you’ll ever do.

I’m going to live past 150.

2018 has changed my life forever because I started following the trick.

I’m convincing myself to try more things that might not work.

The first butterfly was once a catepillar who asked the question, ‘I wonder what will happen if I try this for a while?’.

To become a butterfly, the catepillar had to die.

The old me was scared to make videos. So he had to die. You can’t really live until you’ve died a little. The 2018 version of me will die in 2019 too.

137 YouTube videos later, I might be getting paid for one. If not, I’ll do 237 more.

See you in 2143.


31,967 steps

That’s how far we walked today.

I’m in New York City with my god father Damien.

We didn’t have any goals, only to explore this beast of a city.

We finished up doing about 18km on foot and 10km on the Citibikes.

We finished the night by watching Notorious, a documentary detailing the rise of Conor McGregor.

If you haven’t yet, you should watch it. Inspiring is an understatement.

The combination of the documentary and walking around the city today filled my mind with possibilities.

This city shows what can be achieved when people get together to build something. Sure, it has its imperfections but that’s what makes the good parts even better.

Conor is the same. His record isn’t perfect. He’s had some professional loses. But they only make his story better.

He started out dirt poor but with a vision and a couple hundred years ago, New York was the same.

It’s reminded me how powerful a belief in yourself can be.

And if you know where your belief is, all you have to do is walk towards it. One step at a time.

Results go where energy flows

My LinkedIn has overtaken my blog in Google’s search rankings.

It’s because I’ve been more consistent there. Posting something every day.

Google rewards consistency. They like it if you’re active. Pages on the first page of Google are active.

How many times have you been past page 1 lately?

I love LinkedIn but I love my blog more. It wouldn’t seem that way though.

My energy has been directed elsewhere. 

Not today. I’m writing on my blog first before anywhere else. I’m going to push it back to the top. It’s where people can find out the most about me.

Results come from the direction we choose to send our energy. It’s a choice we can all make.

The universe works in mysterious ways when you decide to dedicate ourselves to something. When you choose to take on a challenge.

All of the best gains in life come from compound interest. Small, repeated, actions over time. It doesn’t have to be every day but it does have to be more than once in a while. 

The first action won’t be as good as the 47th. And the 47th won’t be as good as the 347th.

It’s not your last action which counts, it’s your next.

What’s the alternative?

The work you’re supposed to be doing. 

The roadblock you’ve got ahead of you. 

That thing you signed up for. 

The journey you’re on. 

When it gets hard, there’s always an alternative. The short cut. The easy option. No option at all. 

It may be right to take the alternative. But it may not be. 

Too many short cuts and you end up taking the long cut. 

Avoiding the hard thing now means facing it later.  And, there’s no shortage of hard things.

Sometimes the most helpful alternative is to forget there is one.