The New You Has To Let The Old You Die

‘We’re looking to sponsor 3-4 videos in your channel,’ she said.

I took a screenshot and sent it to my brothers and friend Dave.

A Senior Marketing Manager from Coursera reached out to me last Friday. She saw one of my videos of me doing a course on their platform.

Now we’re spinning ideas together to see what can come next.

It might work out, it might not.

Last year, I would’ve never received that email.

‘What are you doing here?’ she asked.



‘It pays for my studies.’

‘But you’re too hot to be an Uber driver.’

Her friends were encouraging her to get my phone number. She kissed me on the cheek when she got out.

Uber was fun. It gave me cash to pay for the courses I was doing online.

The best part was meeting new people every 10-minutes. Everyone has a story. I made it my mission to find it out.

Then I got a fine for driving in the wrong place one night. So I quit driving the next day.

I’ve been studying Machine Learning online for the past 18-months. I got a job as an Engineer two weeks after saying to myself ‘I’m not driving Uber anymore.’

Along the way, I turned into a human frozen yoghurt machine. But with content instead of yoghurt. Sometimes my output isn’t as sweet but at least it lasts forever.

Anyway, I make videos about what I get up to. And I’d been doing a course on Coursera so I made a video about it.

And then the email came. Even if it falls through, its changed my life forever.

So what’s the trick?

People will tell you there is no trick.

Or that the trick can’t be taught.

They’re right. And so are all the other platitudes. But their words aren’t useful.

The trick is to do more things that might not work.

I’ve been listening to a lot of rap lately. I love the punchiness behind the bars.

When a rapper makes it, all their songs talk about is how they struggled to make it.

All the times they were broke and eating nothing but driven by the vision. You know the songs.

There’s a lesson there. Your truth is best story you’ll ever tell.

Out of every 1 rapper who makes it, there’s probably 10,000 who don’t. But they all have one thing in common, doing something that might not work.

The old version of me was a fragile caterpillar.

  • Afraid to create things and share them with others

  • ‘I can learn that’ attitude

  • ‘Who can I blame for this?’ type operator

  • No specific vision because being specific meant a defined point of failure

  • Dishonest with myself

  • Not in love with myself

Now I’m a butterfly.

  • I let the ideas out of the jail of my mind

  • Everything is my fault, no blaming others

  • I can learn anything with enough time, dedication and purpose

  • Ambitious specific visions

  • Honest with myself

  • More in love with myself

  • And I flutter around

Why a butterfly?

Because most butterfly’s have a short lifespan. Two weeks or less.

You know the saying. Life is short.

But it’s also the longest thing you’ll ever do.

I’m going to live past 150.

2018 has changed my life forever because I started following the trick.

I’m convincing myself to try more things that might not work.

The first butterfly was once a catepillar who asked the question, ‘I wonder what will happen if I try this for a while?’.

To become a butterfly, the catepillar had to die.

The old me was scared to make videos. So he had to die. You can’t really live until you’ve died a little. The 2018 version of me will die in 2019 too.

137 YouTube videos later, I might be getting paid for one. If not, I’ll do 237 more.

See you in 2143.